Yeah, i think Kaili was right.
I mean in a sense that....
there's still chance to get us back as a clique, an awesome clique.
I saw the old wallpost in my profile.
I recalled that how happy that i was with jasmine,kaili and yingjing
i remembered that i commented their status daily...
i wrote on their walls daliy...
and how sweet we commented on each other'wall...
but now, it's was totally different...
yeah...i did the same things...
but to different people...
i realised that our clique doesn't look a clique..
it's just look like an act...
we just act in the play(clique) in order not to lose anyone.
We people started to detest each other...
just dont know why most of us drift apart...
i bet nobody knows.
We used to play together..but now?
we are going on our own way...
last time we used to took the same route...
we were willing to share things with each other...
but now...we became selfish and only care for ourselves.
Not even one year...we had changed to be like this.
Yeah...i used to have an awesome clique..
we were super close even if we did not go out together...
we shared everything...
yeah...though we gossiped at each other back...
but we still can be very close...
we split up for some reasons...
people just change in a way we couldnt control
everything just change...
I felt really sorry...
cause i really think that my expectations was too high.
In the past, my clique used to care for each other...
we played around...chat happily...
took numerous of neoprints....
but now? i dont even have a complete set of neoprints with my clique...
yeah, i did take with them...but some were not free on this day, that day...
or we secretly took it..i mean in the sense that we just want to take for only two of us...
Yeah...we shouldn't do that since we are still in the same clique...
yeah, last time i super close with jasmine...
but now? it's like we two showing attitude to each other...
i tried to concern her..but she was very cold...
i mean in a sense that she like living in her own world...
why is she becoming like this?
And me...last time i wouldnt leave jasmine behind...
but now? cos i dont like to get along with people that is cold...
i gone to look for my old friends...
it was like totally different between 2010 & 2011.
I used to bully and joke with kaili~~~
and we played like little kids...
i used to post alot of things and commented on Yingjing's wall.
Though we knew we can't really hit the same topic..
but it's like i still make an effort to play with her...
now is like....i dont know what to say...
everything just change after our last conflict.
It seems like a tragic? or what...
And i really missed those happy moments we really had...
especially to jasmine...
i want to be as close with her again..
i want to play with her like kids..
i want to share everything with her again...
i want to talk with about school life...
and gossip with her with whatever topic we bring out...
i dont want to be cold to each other...
it's like we did not change,
just our feeling slowly fade and became cold.
And to kaili....
i want to play with her like little kids...
i still rmb we drew on each other hand and play like mad woman..
i missed the times she shared her things with me...
i missed the time when we were crazy over our loved ones(those now they are not)
I really missed it alot ...most importantly...
i missed the time when i still got lots of chance to bully her...
And to the very last peron, Yingjing..
Yeah i missed the time when i post on her wall...
kept commenting on her status....
though there's little things that we really had in common..
but i rmb that she's the first one that i told who jas stead with...
I hope there's improvement in between us...
and she's the only that i really wished that we could really get along well(:
i really wished...
i'm not obsessed in k pop or shinee..but i will still try my very best to get well with her..
I admitted that that i complained to other people about my clique's flaws..
and i knew that i shouldnt do it...
cause i just can't get enough...
last time i did shared all my thought and secret with jasmine...
and she did too...
we will like giving each other support...
i not sure whether she rmb or not....
i rmb we both cried badly because our **** cher was like only think for herself..
then we were super worried about our MT O level exam...
cause we failed or just pass in each of our assignment...
and we chated until 7 plus...just because of this thing.
I rmb when the conflict start...
i'm the first to cry on the phone...
then she console me...
and after that...
her turn to cry....
then i console her...
then she doesnt want this to happen...
she was super afraid that she would just lose kaili and yingjing.
Same for me tooo...i was kind of afraid that i would lose everybody who's invovled in the conflicts..
and i told her after the conflicts...
we must wrote a long and sweet letter...
and planned to give kaili and yingjing a hug...
i dont know why...just want hug them so much...
is like yeah...now tears is dripping out from my eyes...
BUT NOW?
why have we gone into this type of situation...
i dont know.. i really dont know...
i seriously want this clique badly...
thinking of our past moments...
they are very precious to me..
we got to be together to create those wonderful moments..
and it's was really sweet(:
i realli want to create more sweet moments together with them....
i really hope that tmr everything will be fine...
i will try to make myself drunk and spill everything out ...
i just have a suddenly feeling that i wished that we could be together again(;
like how we were in the past...i'm serious (:
Love,
Linglin♥
